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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Dec 31, 2010 1:14:13 GMT -5
I was out seeing to some of the errands Gadleon had assigned me, but only half my mind was on them. I had managed to get a note sent to Adin, begging him to meet me, for I had to speak with him before I gave Gadleon my answer.
O stepped out of a shop and looked around as I tucked the small package into my bag. This was about the time I’d asked Adin to be here and I prayed he would show.
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Dec 31, 2010 1:32:14 GMT -5
I had received a very cryptic note from Olivia, and had cleared my schedule to meet her. I would have done so anyway, but I was a little concerned that something might be wrong.
I met her in the palace district as requested, spotting her from about half a block away. Naamah but she took my breath away. "Hello Olivia," I greeted her with a smile.
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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Jan 1, 2011 14:56:48 GMT -5
“Adin!” I said, smiling wide and barely able to keep myself from throwing myself into his arms. “I am so glad you came. I’m sorry for the rush.”
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Jan 1, 2011 18:57:03 GMT -5
Her smile lit up the street, and it caused me to impulsively lean in and kiss her on the cheek. "It's not a problem. Is everything alright?" I asked.
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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Jan 2, 2011 21:13:53 GMT -5
My breath caught as he kissed my cheek and for a moment I couldn’t speak.
“Yes, everything’s fine,” I said eventually. “I just needed to discuss something with you and it’s time sensitive. Do you mind if we walk and talk? I have tasks to complete.”
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Jan 2, 2011 21:49:47 GMT -5
"Sorry," I murmured, knowing I was just making things more difficult by touching her. "Of course, lead on."
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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Jan 3, 2011 2:43:57 GMT -5
"No, it's me who should be sorry, I didn't explain very well in the note," I said as we walked. "I'm actually on assignation right now. A patron contracted me for an entire week.' I glanced up at him, then down, wanting to continue and get everything out before just being this close to him made me forget everything else. "He is testing me, trying me out to see if I fit what he wants. He doesn't just want a bedmate, but someone to run errands, take care of his house, and see to him. He's offered to buy my marque if at the end of the week we think it would work." I was tempted to stop, but I had to keep going. "He says that I would have discretion choosing my patrons, and that as long as I was discreet I could take lovers..."
It was then that I couldn't continue - my words or my feet, they both stopped - and I looked at him, wanting desperately to know what he was thinking.
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Jan 3, 2011 15:50:45 GMT -5
I listened to her as we walked, her words surprising me. She was speaking about the offer like she might accept it, despite the fact that last time we spoke, she had said she couldn't imagine leaving Valerian. But nothing could prepare me for the words that came next.
As long as I was discreet I could take lovers...
I opened my mouth and then shut it again, stunned. I had to take a moment to gather my thoughts, and when I did open my mouth again, I chose my words carefully. "That sounds like a wonderful opportunity. But you're asking the opinion of a rather biased man. I thought you loved it at Valerian," I said softly, my eyes searching her face.
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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Jan 3, 2011 21:15:17 GMT -5
“I do love Valerian,” I said, my fingers twisting together. “But…” I tried to think of how to say what I was feeling. “I miss you Adin, gods, I think about you every day. I love Valerian, but I’m not happy there anymore, not like I was.”
Daring, I reached out and touched his chest. “If I do this, we can be together.”
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Jan 4, 2011 0:14:51 GMT -5
Her fingers touched my chest, and I could feel it get tight with restraint. As before when I had visited her, I wanted to touch her badly. But I kept myself in check.
"I want you to be happy Olivia, whether or not I'm in the picture. I want to be in the picture, but I don't want to jeopardize your future," I said, knowing that I had to say such things for her own good. Even if I wanted to tell her unequivocally yes, take his offer. Carefully, I placed my hand over hers where it lay against my heart. "If you'll be happy with his patron, then say yes. But if you won't be, I'm not going anywhere. We'll still be able to spend some time together."
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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Jan 5, 2011 1:07:50 GMT -5
His hand covered mind and I wanted to melt. Some time together was not enough, it wasn’t enough now and it would not be enough ever.
There was something I needed to ask though, something I had to know before I accepted Gadleon’s offer should he make it. I moved a little so that we had what little privacy there was to be found.
“Will it matter to you if when we are together I bare the marks of my time with him?” I asked, not knowing a more delicate way to phrase it. “His is Shahrizai, as is the woman he is courting. Before I agree to this, I have to know that such a thing won’t upset you.”
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Jan 6, 2011 10:03:47 GMT -5
"Oh," I said, the question surprising me. I thought about it for a moment, knowing that not being honest would be a disservice to both of us. "I don't think it would bother me. Especially now that I know it could be coming."
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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Jan 6, 2011 21:42:14 GMT -5
Glancing around, I saw no one was in the alley behind us and taking his hand, I drew him in with me, far enough we could not easily be seen from the street.
“He’s going to hurt me,” I said, my voice low but not cruel, this was the truth. “Not in the ways that some who come to Valerian might, but he will hurt me. It is nothing I can’t handle, but I just need to make sure that it’s not going to come between us. It won’t be some unknown patron; you’ll know who did this.” I tugged at the laces of my bodice, loosening them. “I am not assuming you are a jealous person or anything like that Adin, it’s just that if I accept his offer, everything is going to change and I have to be certain.”
I drew my bodice open enough so that he could see the bruises Gadleon had left on my breasts, the marks of his fingers stark against my skin. “Will you still want me like this?” I asked, forcing my voice not to break. Silently I begged him to say yes, prayed for it desperately.
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Jan 8, 2011 15:40:09 GMT -5
My fingers traced across the bruises lightly, as if to make them real. I couldn't believe that I was doing it in a public place like this, but it was what she did to me. "Yes," I whispered, my hand leaving her skin as I looked into her eyes. "Yes I do. Will. But... I don't know if I could bear it to think I was hurting you. By being with you when you were injured I mean. I know that you need... such things," I said as I blushed, skirting around saying the actual specifics, "and I accept that. Even knowing who did those things to you. I just don't wish to hurt you further. Does that make sense?" I wasn't sure, for the sight of her chest was rather distracting. By the gods, I felt like I was sixteen again around her sometimes.
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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Jan 9, 2011 16:24:09 GMT -5
My eyelids fluttered as he touched my skin, pleasure and need rushing through me. My lips parted as my breathing quickened. Then his touch was gone and I listened to his words, joy filling me now.
“Oh Adin,” I whispered, reaching up to caress his cheek. “You could never hurt me. With you, there is joy and pleasure and no pain.” I took a breath and forced myself not to kiss him. “But I promise, I swear, that if at any time there is pain, I will tell you. You will never have to worry that you might be hurting me.”
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Jan 9, 2011 22:38:13 GMT -5
I nodded at her words, and then it hit me. It truly hit me. Olivia was going to be free to see me. Oh gods, it felt like my chest would physically expand with the hope. My eyes sparkled, my mouth grinned, and I nearly leaned in to kiss her.
But something stopped it. And I realized that if this was ever going to work, I needed her to know something. "Olivia, this might sound really strange. But... what I need to know is not if I would be sharing you with someone with... rougher tendencies. It's if whether or not you would light your candle when you were still with the both of us. Or however many others are a part of your life. You probably haven't even thought of such things yet, I just..." My voice trailed off as I realized I was probably sounding like an idiot, and I looked at the ground.
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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Jan 10, 2011 19:51:34 GMT -5
His question confused me, not what he meant but why he was asking. There must be something that had happened to him to make him ask such a thing.
My hand slipped into his and I squeezed softly. “When I light my candle Adin, it will be because I have found the one man I want to share the life of my child or children with. I never knew my father, not even his name, and as much as I love my mother it is something I missed. Any child of mine will know his or her father, will know that I love him and that he is the only person I was with when he or she was conceived,” I told him, hoping that I was answering his question.
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Jan 10, 2011 22:36:02 GMT -5
I let out the air that had been stopped in my lungs with relief. "Thank you. That was exactly what I needed to hear," I told her, a soft smile returning slowly to my lips. Maybe one day I would tell her the story behind my question, but not now. I wasn't ready.
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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Jan 11, 2011 17:01:27 GMT -5
I smiled with relief that I had answered as he wanted, especially since the answer had been the truth.
“Then, if Gadleon offers, I shall accept the position and leave Valerian,” I said, finding I wasn’t scared by the idea at all. “And then, we can be together.”
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Jan 11, 2011 22:11:32 GMT -5
"That sounds... rather fantastic," I said with a smile. I pressed a kiss to her forehead, needing to touch her and knowing if I didn't let myself, my lips would find hers instead.
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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Jan 11, 2011 23:39:35 GMT -5
“Yes, it does,” I breathed, feeling myself tremble as he kissed my forehead. I wanted so badly to kiss him.
I controlled myself though and even managed to draw back enough to do up my bodice. “I will see you soon then, I hope.”
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Jan 13, 2011 22:48:15 GMT -5
"Soon. I'd love to show you Alyssum sometime," I said with a shy little smile. I could think now that her bodice was done up again.
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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Jan 13, 2011 22:54:41 GMT -5
“I’d like that, very much,” I told him. My hand caressed his cheek lingeringly, allowing myself this much.
“I’ll write to you at the end of the week, once I know whether I am staying at Valerian or leaving.”
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Jan 14, 2011 0:01:44 GMT -5
Her hand moved over my skin, causing my eyes to flutter shut with pleasure. By the gods I wanted her, in a way I hadn't wanted a woman since Sidonie. "I'll look for your note," I promised.
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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Jan 14, 2011 0:04:23 GMT -5
I forced myself to move back and stop touching him. “Until then,” I said, my voice rough with desire.
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Jan 14, 2011 13:06:16 GMT -5
I opened my eyes and nodded. "Good luck," I whispered before near fleeing from the lust I heard in her voice and saw painted all over her face. By the gods did I hope she got on with her Shahrizai.
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Post by Olivia nó Valerian on Jan 14, 2011 16:29:49 GMT -5
Leaning back against the wall, I took a moment to draw in deep, settling breaths before I left the alley and returned to my errands. The list was not as complicated as I had feared when Gadleon first told me about it, but it was difficult enough and I needed to have all my faculties to focus on it. I wanted, needed, to please him and prove to him that I was right for what he wanted.
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