Sidonie Raviver (D)
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The Lady Baronesse le ?crivain- Authoress
Currently 24 weeks Pregnant. Due the 3rd week of Spring.
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Post by Sidonie Raviver (D) on Mar 2, 2010 15:40:05 GMT -5
Despite the fact that the chill of winter had begun to set in, this day in particular was nice. I had been happy upon seeing my editor and not more then a few days after I recieved a small purse for my book. Deciding that it was time I started to shop for the arrival of my child, I made my way to the market stalls in Nights Doorstep to look over the last of the summer and autumn wares.
At this point it was quite possible to see my bulging stomach and even though it made things a little awkward, I was beginning to really enjoy it. My hand ran over my stomach almost as though caressing the unborn child as I walked. With a smile on my face, I wandered from stall to stall searching for items that would work in my nursery.
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Adin nó Alyssum
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Mar 2, 2010 23:59:06 GMT -5
It was one of the last nice days before winter hit the City, and so I had gone to visit my parents. On my way home I had thought of the twins, so I wandered through the Doorstep on my way up the mount to see if anything caught my eye. I didn't have the money that Fisher did, but I could certainly manage little gifts for them on my salary.
Something did indeed catch my eye. Sidonie. I froze, looking at her across a cart of baby-sized sweaters. No, not just looking, drinking her in. It made my heart hurt so badly, but I couldn't help myself. She looked wonderful, happy and... pregnant?
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Sidonie Raviver (D)
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The Lady Baronesse le ?crivain- Authoress
Currently 24 weeks Pregnant. Due the 3rd week of Spring.
Posts: 974
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Post by Sidonie Raviver (D) on Mar 3, 2010 21:20:38 GMT -5
It was strange, this feeling, as I browsed through the items in each cart I could feel myself grow more and more excited and things some how became more and more real to me; I couldn't help but smile. Seeing some clothing I picked up an item and held it, turning it over in my hand; blue for a boy. I made me smile even wider and for the first time since I had found out I was with child, I wondered excitedly about if I was having a boy or a girl.
It was then that I felt a strange feeling, as though I were being watched, I couldn't quiet explain it, I just suddenly felt different. I looked up and looked to one side; no, no one there. I looked forward then;[/i] no one there either[/i]. The strange feeling was just starting to fade when I turned my head and... there... standing not feet from me... was Adin.
"Adin." I said in surprise, his name springing from my lips unvoluntarily and it all caused me to drop the garment on the ground. For a moment I stared at him, unsure as to what to say before I realized I had droped the item. Carefully I went to bend down to retrive it, but found that it was difficult and awkward due to my stomach. I had to reach out and grab the side of the cart to stop me from swaying as I bent down to get the item.
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Adin nó Alyssum
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Mar 4, 2010 21:59:49 GMT -5
I hurried over and picked up the miniature blue outfit, then helped her stand up straight again so that I could hand it back to her. I didn't know what to say. How far along are you? Do you know who the father is? Do you ever regret breaking my heart? I finally settled on something more basic. "Hello Sidonie."
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Sidonie Raviver (D)
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The Lady Baronesse le ?crivain- Authoress
Currently 24 weeks Pregnant. Due the 3rd week of Spring.
Posts: 974
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Post by Sidonie Raviver (D) on Mar 4, 2010 23:00:26 GMT -5
He came over, helping me to stand and picking up the outfit as well. When I was standing I couldn't help but look at his face, my eyes taking in everything that was he; I had forgotten how beautiful he looked, so beautiful I could have cried. And as if my body had heard my thoughts I felt two single tears cascade over my lower eye lids and spill down my cheeks. I looked away them feeling embarassed at the show of emotion; it was so easy to do these days, I seemed to want to cry at everything, but seeing Adin... it brought out all the regret I had. With each hand I wiped my tears away and placed the little blue piece of clothing down where I had found it before looking shyly back to Adin. "Hello Adin." I replied softly, my eyes not meeting his for fear I would break down and cry.
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Adin nó Alyssum
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Mar 6, 2010 17:18:16 GMT -5
Just looking at me made her cry. Naamah, how we had hurt one another. "You look well," I said, my voice very soft as pain tore me up inside.
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Sidonie Raviver (D)
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The Lady Baronesse le ?crivain- Authoress
Currently 24 weeks Pregnant. Due the 3rd week of Spring.
Posts: 974
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Post by Sidonie Raviver (D) on Mar 7, 2010 16:06:30 GMT -5
Oh Elua! The sound of his voice made it that much harder to respond; seeing him standing before looking handsome as ever, it made me miss him that much more. I wanted to reach out and touch him, to wrap my arms around him and kiss him; it was then that I realized just how much I missed him and how much I wanted him back. I had always known that I regreted what I had done, that I knew if I could go back and change it I would; but I had never thought for a second about trying to fix it. Right then I knew I had to try, at least some how; if he turned around and told me he could never take me back... well then that was it, but at least I could try.
"Thank you." I said softly as I looked at him, my brows furrowed as I studied him, thinking to myself; please, oh please, let me fix this. Let me have him back. Subconciously I reached out and ran my hand over my stomach, as was becoming steady habit. At the same time I looked down at my stomach and realized that he probably wondered about it, after all it had been the downward spiral that led to our demise; I had told him about lighting my candle. "I'm due at the end of spring." I said then as I looked up at him, wondering if that was on his mind.
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Adin nó Alyssum
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Mar 8, 2010 0:07:47 GMT -5
I looked down at my hands, clasped tight before me, and then glanced at where hers rested casually against the bump in her stomach. At her words I glanced up to her face. "Congratulations. Is it... Congratulations," I repeated, unable to ask the important question.
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Sidonie Raviver (D)
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The Lady Baronesse le ?crivain- Authoress
Currently 24 weeks Pregnant. Due the 3rd week of Spring.
Posts: 974
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Post by Sidonie Raviver (D) on Mar 9, 2010 1:57:44 GMT -5
I could almost read the question on his face, he wanted to know if it was his, of course he did. But I didn't want to tell him, not yet any way. Part of me didn't even want to think about saying anything to him till the child was born. Well that was then and this was now, right now I needed to just get through the minutes as they past. "Would you...." I swallowed, fearful of how he would respond to what I was about to ask. "The chirurgeon says I shouldn't be on my feet to long," I said trying to be some what casual. "I was about to go have tea, would you care to join me?" I asked, my voice some where between hopeful and resigned. "I'm sure theres not much you'd care to talk about with me, but even if we just sit in silence, it would be nice... to just have you there." I looked at him there, my gaze partially obstructed by my lashes as I felt unable to look at him too fully. I was too afraid of what his answer would be.
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Adin nó Alyssum
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Mar 10, 2010 13:37:04 GMT -5
Her request was reasonable. If she wasn't expecting me to try to make small talk, I could manage. It would hurt like hell, anything concerning Sidonie hurt right now, but I could manage. "Alright," I said, my voice soft.
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Sidonie Raviver (D)
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The Lady Baronesse le ?crivain- Authoress
Currently 24 weeks Pregnant. Due the 3rd week of Spring.
Posts: 974
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Post by Sidonie Raviver (D) on Mar 10, 2010 13:57:28 GMT -5
I flashed a gentle, soft smile before it disapeared. "I think Caisse de Pomme would probably be closest." I said softly and pointed casually in its direction. "Does that suit?"
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Adin nó Alyssum
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Post by Adin nó Alyssum on Mar 12, 2010 17:10:01 GMT -5
"Of course," I replied, and we began walking in the direction she indicated. I studied her out of the corner of my eye as we moved along the street. She was as beautiful now as she had been six months ago.
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