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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Dec 29, 2008 23:55:38 GMT -5
I leaned back looking at the shelf as I straightened. "Well, perhaps." I said softly as I thought. "I wanted to pick up at least a few books."
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 0:25:29 GMT -5
"Myself as well. I have this book," I said, gesturing to the one in my hand that I had taken down from the shelf, "but there was another title I was looking for to add to my library." I absentmindedly turned from him, looking to the shelf again, glancing at the montage of neatly lined books. "I am not entirely sure where to find it, though," I muttered, trailing a finger over the exposed spines as I murmured the names to myself.
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 0:32:12 GMT -5
I stepped forward looking at the book and then leaned back as she turned to the stacks. "What's it called?" I asked curiously.
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 0:34:44 GMT -5
"Symposium," I offered as I continued to look through the titles. "It is by a Tiberian philosopher." I looked back over my shoulder at him. "Have you heard of it?"
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 0:45:14 GMT -5
I shook my head and then leaned in stepping right up next to her, reaching above her head as the spine's gold lettering caught my eye. "This one." I said pulling it down and then offered it to her. "No, I've never heard of it."
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 9:44:16 GMT -5
His proximity as he pulled a book from the shelf was alarmingly comforting, not so much imposing or challenging, just friendly. It was nice. I turned to him, taking the book he was handing to me.
"Ah yes this one," I said as I opened it, leafing through the pages. "A friend of mine mentioned that it would be a good read, considering my choices in literature lately." I looked up at him with a slightly impish smile. "I must say, impeccable height comes in handy. Thank you."
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 14:54:09 GMT -5
I nodded, listening to her for a moment and then smiling. "Well, my height does come on handy once in a while." I said softly. "You're welcome." I smiled a little wider. "Tell me about the book."
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 14:59:55 GMT -5
"It is a discourse on the various forms of love, philosophical discussions on friendship, the origins of the need for love, true love, soul mates, the heart. I have been rather enamoured with such tomes as of late. This one sounded like it might be a lovely addition to the rest of the ones I have perused," I explained, looking down at the book. Then I looked back up to Azriel. "Tell me cousin, do you believe in soul mates? In true love?"
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 16:10:33 GMT -5
I listened and nodded to myself as she explained and then thought to myself for a moment at her question. "Yes I believe I do." I said softly, and smiled a little, first thinking of Isabelle and then thinking of Isra. "Though I'm not sure if there is one person for everyone, or multiple people that can be soul mates." I chuckled a little. "What about you?"
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 16:24:34 GMT -5
"I believe pretty much the same. I think that people can love many people, and also be in love with many as well. Sometimes though, it is possible to just settle with one for the rest of one's life. I think it is a difficult quest, to find someone that you can be with completely and wholly, especially when you may have loved others before them that still hold a part of you captive, almost like you are cheating the new love because the old love still has a part of you... it's all very difficult. Then again, anything to do with love usually is," I added with a soft laugh.
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 16:42:10 GMT -5
I listened to her and nodded in agreement. "I would say so." I said with a soft smile, thinking once more on Isabelle and Isra. "I think love is thee most complicated emotion there is." I offered.
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 16:45:06 GMT -5
"Love and hate together, I think. I have been mulling this over in my head for sometime, the nature of the two, and how in essence they are one and the same." I said shrugging. "Sorry, I'm not much of a conversationalist, I must be boring you with my ideals." I felt my cheeks heat gently as I looked up into his eyes. He seemed to be talking from experience, but I didn't think it was my place to really pry into his relationship status or history.
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 21:00:46 GMT -5
I shook my head. "No, I think I agree." I said with a chuckle. "Its nice to hear another person that feels the same way." I added. "Is there another?" I asked leaning forward again and going to reach for another copy for myself.
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 22:08:51 GMT -5
"There is one by a Ruskovian man, I think, regarding the standpoint the Yeshuites take on love. I have not read much regarding the Yeshuite faith as yet, but it would be interesting to see how their views on love differ, or mayhap strike the same chord. It is called 'Works of Love.'" Then I stopped for a moment, rethinking my answer. "Or did you mean another person who thinks in the same manner?" I asked with a chuckle.
It was amazing to be able to have such a conversation, with a man at that, without him getting utterly bored or moving on to intrigue or sex. Different, but welcome.
I smiled as he reached to grab a copy of 'Symposium' for himself.
"Going to take a gander for yourself?" I asked as he took a copy down from the shelf.
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 23:09:17 GMT -5
"Why yes, I think I shall." I said to my dark haired cousin, whom I was starting to get aquainted to. I gave a little smile. "Though I think one book on love would do for me today. Any more and I'm liable to be stired to a frenzy." I teased a little shyly.
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Dec 30, 2008 23:41:03 GMT -5
I laughed a soft, bell-like laugh. He was so adorable, teasing me then nearly blushing.
"I don't know," I speculated with a sly smile, "I guess after a while you get desensitized to it. But it does take some time, and many many books."
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Dec 31, 2008 0:24:22 GMT -5
I chuckled and smiled a little more. "I don't try to become desensitized to too many things. Its a shame to the senses."
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Dec 31, 2008 9:43:42 GMT -5
I nodded, smiling in a rather wicked manner. "Yes, robbing oneself of the divine myriad of senses that we've been given is definitely not the D'Angeline way, yet some people still try to school themselves into something they really are not," I shrugged, "I believe we are all guilty of that on some level, n'est pas?"
It was nice when he smiled, he seemed so shy, so bundled up, like he had a diamond exterior that nothing could slice through. Plus, it was a rather becoming smile.
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Dec 31, 2008 15:56:48 GMT -5
"Very true." I said in agreement and nodded a little. "Its a shame indeed, to be so unlike yourself. To not follow your own desires." I mused.
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Dec 31, 2008 16:01:20 GMT -5
"Yes, especially those desires that cause confusion," I said more pointedly. "I think that may be why many people do not like the Shahrizai... and why many Shahrizai don't like themselves."
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Dec 31, 2008 17:22:25 GMT -5
Her comment caught me off guard as it was true of myself and my face straightened in thought as I turned my gaze to the shelf as I tried to collect my feelings and reply. "Yes perhaps." I said softly. "I can't imagine every Shahrizai feels the same about their lineage." I offered, turning to her and giving a soft smile.
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Jan 1, 2009 17:40:23 GMT -5
"No, not everyone, but some find it harder to come to grips with it and try to deny some of their...stronger appetites," I offered as I saw something shifting in his face.
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Jan 1, 2009 17:49:05 GMT -5
I turned and looked at her knitting my brows. "Is that the only reason one would turn away from their kin so easily?" I asked curiously.
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Jan 1, 2009 18:48:17 GMT -5
"No, not the only reason, but I find it to be a common factor, the most recurring complaint you could say. But, by appetites I don't mean those of a purely sexual origin," I explained. "Have you found otherwise?" I asked, hoping he wouldn't think I was trying to probe too deeply.
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Jan 1, 2009 18:57:00 GMT -5
"No." I said plainly and turned back to the stack, thinking to myself as I ran my fingers over random spines. "But what other...appetites... are there?"
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Jan 1, 2009 19:01:52 GMT -5
"You have not felt them yourself, Azriel?" I asked, not pointing any blame, but asking simply. "For example, the want to control, tying in with our ability to feel the inadequacies of others around us and exploit them sometimes for personal gain," I explained.
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Jan 1, 2009 19:10:39 GMT -5
I turned to her and looked at her. "No," I said softly, shrugging and shaking my head a little. "I admit that my intuition about people is generally good. But thats about it." I went back to the books and began to look through them.
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Jan 1, 2009 19:17:54 GMT -5
I looked over to him as he focussed on the tomes. "Then..." I started but stopped, looking away as I did. The answer to what I wanted to ask was not my business, nor was it really my place to ask it. But wasn't it?
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Post by Azriel Shahrizai on Jan 1, 2009 19:30:44 GMT -5
"Then what?" I asked looking at her in a side long glance, curious as to what she had been thinking.
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Post by Sarielle Shahrizai on Jan 1, 2009 19:38:38 GMT -5
"Then why don't you particularly like us?" I asked, looking down, not wanting to meet his gaze.
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