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Post by Plaisir Durante (R) on Apr 18, 2008 0:08:14 GMT -5
Only my eyes moved as I watched the light make its way across the walls and ceiling. I’d not had the will to move the vase that I’d bought that day I met LaValle so it was that refracted light that led my eyes. I had no idea how long I’d been laying here in bed, time had stopped for me at some point after I’d left Alyssum.
There’s been soft inquiries and gentle tending by my staff, but none of it stirred me. My heart still lay in pieces inside my chest, ragged edges that cut every time I breathed. Every time I fell in love it ended with tears for me and each time was harder to get past. I didn’t know if I could do it this time. why it was that I fell for those who wouldn’t, or couldn’t, love me in return was a mystery that wouldn’t be solved and somewhere after I’d no longer had tears to cry I’d quit trying to figure it out.
The sun set again, taking with it the dancing lights and I closed my eyes. I knew sleep wouldn’t come, but the darkness inside my eyelids was somehow easier to take than the darkness outside.
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