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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 9, 2009 1:19:54 GMT -5
Once she was inside I took a deep breath and stepped into it as well, sitting next to her and closing the door behind me. I felt the footman step into his seat and then the horses pulled forward and the carriage jolted back and forth before finding a smooth pace. I turned to her and took a breath as I reached up and cupped her face. I leaned in, quickly, so as to make sure that she couldn't recoil, and kissed her.
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 11, 2009 14:09:11 GMT -5
I hadn't thought about what to expect in the carriage, so caught up was I about bringing Reese to the house. But suddenly his hand was cradling my face and his lips were pressed against mine. I had been craving for it earlier, near begging with my eyes, but now that he had finally kissed me, it was a surprise. I had that shocked moment of stillness before I began tentatively to kiss him back.
I had never kissed him back before. Odd, but true. In fact, we had only kissed once, and I had slapped him afterwards. That kiss had been violent, desperate. And it felt like a lifetime ago. Gods, so much had happened since the hunt fete... This kiss wasn't fierce, wasn't as crushing. But at least now I could admit that I wanted it, could kiss him back and caress his cheek.
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 13, 2009 0:49:31 GMT -5
I had been afraid of how she would respond, how she would act apon our second kiss, but her words, her actions. Things were different between us, there was something very different now, and now she kissed back, giving into it and to me. I gave in return, my hand cupping her head, my hands in her hair, as I deepened the kiss and slipped my tongue into her mouth.
Gods it was perfect, her lips, her taste, spicy and sweet at the same time. That was my Mouse and I could taste it on her. Kissing Juliette was like nothing I had ever felt, not with that....Not with her. Juliette filled my senses and made me light headed, she made me swoon... I leaned toward her more, my other hand slipping around her waist in an attempt to pull her to me. I just hoped she didn't slap me again.
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 14, 2009 0:17:44 GMT -5
He kissed like he was born to it, when he wasn't trying to knock me over the head with the contact. His tongue slipped between my lips before I could ever think to turn it away. I struggled to keep my thought process under the weight of that first wave of sensation, and the fear helped. The fear that I would let him carry me away, and wake tomorrow morning without him beside me. So I kissed him, my hands running over his neck and shoulders, and enjoyed it. But not without losing myself.
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 14, 2009 0:48:08 GMT -5
I kissed her for a time before I felt myself being consumed by her, I needed to pull back, I needed to reign myself in a little. Reluctantly I pulled back from her embrace, but held my arms around her still. "Well that went infinately better then the last time." I noted playfully.
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 14, 2009 1:08:05 GMT -5
I blinked a few times, no doubt looking like a started doe. Then I raised a brow, a tiny smile curling my lips up. "I could hit you now if it would make you feel better. That's what the deal was, after all."
To be honest, as much as I yearned for him, I appreciated the breathing space. It would be so easy to simply capitulate and let him take over my senses. No matter what the consequences were.
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 14, 2009 1:12:11 GMT -5
Oh gods, my beautiful Juliette, my wonderful Mouse. My hand reached for her face and cupped it, caressing her skin but not pressing the matter. She looked so helpless, yet strong at the same time, and I wanted badly to see her strung out on pleasure by my touch. "You can hit me all you wish Juliette, just don't turn me away and I'll play your Valerian." I said with a ghost of a smile, my arm still firm around her waist.
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 14, 2009 22:28:05 GMT -5
I smiled, even though I tried not to. "I should you know. My common sense is telling me to keep you at bay. You're a bad boy Reese, girls like me should stay far, far away," I said, my voice soft. But I didn't pull away, in fact my hand reached out to tuck a lock of his hair behind his ear.
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 14, 2009 22:57:27 GMT -5
I leaned toward her, my lips brushing along her cheek bone to her lips. She smelled so wonderful, her skin like peaches and cinnamon; something intoxicating that I couldn't place. I hadn't even realized I missed it. "Where's the fun in that." I teased, the tip of my nose trailing over her skin to her neck and inhaled. "Besides, bad boys can be good too." I whispered.
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 14, 2009 23:14:32 GMT -5
"When was the last time you were good?" I asked in return, my eyes fluttering closed with him so close again. To have him touch me like this... So familiar, so forbidden for so long. There was more than one reason why my rebuffs of Reese hadn't stuck, but the sparking passion between us was definitely a strong one. I sighed unconsciously, a happy sound as my fingers moved through his hair.
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 14, 2009 23:23:18 GMT -5
I laughed a snort of air against her neck at her question, her hands traversing my hair as my other hand moved to her thigh and moved it over her upper leg. "You have a point there love." I murmured gently as I opened my mouth and bore my teeth, very gently drawing them across her skin as closed my mouth. My lips then pressed to her skin and kissed her gently.
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 14, 2009 23:59:07 GMT -5
I gasped as his teeth scrapped against my skin, the words that I'd been about to say escaping, lost to sensation. My breathing hitched and then sped up, and hand clenched, though thankfully it didn't cause me to yank at his hair. Would have served him right if it did though.
When his lips returned, I scrapped enough of my mind together to speak again. "You'll play Valerian, but would you be good if I asked Reese?" I asked, the question of vital importance.
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 15, 2009 0:21:44 GMT -5
Her words cut through my desire, cut through the teasing and the heat between us, going straight to my mind and making me focus sharply. My once closed eyes flew open and I furrowed my brows as I stilled, not moving as I thought.
Could I? Would I?.... Should I? I pulled back slowly and looked at her, my gaze holding hers as I took a breath. "For you," I said softly as I took another breath. "For you I would do my best."
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 17, 2009 0:12:13 GMT -5
He looked me in the eyes, his gaze feeling like it was peering into my soul. To have him look at me like that without all the teasing and the anger... I had never seen it before, not really. It was why his feelings had been such a surprise. But I saw it now. Maybe it was foolish, but right at that moment I truly did believe that he loved me.
"You would promise me that without even knowing what I meant by being good?" I asked, still bowled over by his seriousness. The only thing Reese had ever been serious about before was his gambling.
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 17, 2009 1:25:58 GMT -5
I glanced down for a moment as I thought how to answer that before I looked at her again. "The Gods know I'm not much of a man Juliette." I began softly. "I have little in the way of truly good features, and most of my life I have made a living out of hurting everyone around me." I sighed a little as I looked at her. "The last think I want to do it hurt you." I took a deep breath then. "Yes, I would promise to be good, to do as you needed. With all that I am, what ever that may be." I felt a little exhasperated by the thought. I knew some where deep inside, that I would hurt her. I didn't know why, or when, or what I would do. But I knew I was bound to mess up some how.
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 19, 2009 22:17:59 GMT -5
I took it all in, watch his face as he struggled with his own inner thoughts. The admission that he himself didn't believe that he had much value pulled at my heartstrings like it always did. It made him more human, more approachable, more someone that I might form a relationship with. My fingers caressed down the side of his face.
"I'm glad you came back," I whispered. There was no way I could match the enormity of what he was telling me. But it would be a crime not to match his honesty. "I tried to live my life normally, but I couldn't forget you. Part of me didn't want to."
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 20, 2009 0:38:50 GMT -5
I let out a breath I didn't even know I had been holding and couldn't help the little smile spread across my lips. "You have no idea what that means to me Mouse." I said softly.
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 20, 2009 10:54:55 GMT -5
The smile that touched his lips was a beautiful, and I hated to ruin it. But my words could not remain unspoken. "Just don't do that to me again. Please Reese. Don't disappear," I pleaded. "Even if we're not talking, send me a note so that I don't worry."
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 21, 2009 15:55:24 GMT -5
I sighed softly and nodded. "I won't." I said gently. Gods, at least I hoped I wouldn't. "What becomes of us then?" I asked curiously, feeling frightened to even ask.
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 21, 2009 16:19:38 GMT -5
I looked at him steadily. "What do you want to become of us Reese?" I asked in return. "The last time we spoke, it was if you couldn't decide whether you wished to court me, or... tire of me." I tried to say those last words evenly, but hurt crept into my voice.
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 21, 2009 22:11:37 GMT -5
I sighed and turned from her a little, trying to collect my thoughts before I turned to look at her. "I don't know." I said softly. "I mean, I'm not really fit to court you Juliette, with my reputation and all. And things are so different now, I'm not even sure who I am right now." I looked at her with furrowed brows. "What do you want from me?" I asked seriously.
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 22, 2009 11:56:16 GMT -5
My hand dropped from his cheek to his shoulder, where it rested in stillness. My eyes found a spot in the middle of his chest, for I couldn't meet his eyes when divulging such things. Even then, a faint blush rose to colour my cheeks.
"I want someone to love me," I whispered. "I want someone that I can see raising a family with. I've always wanted those things Reese. I don't want a family right at this second, but it's more than just needing an heir." I couldn't look at his face then, for I was very afraid of what I might see there. It was too much to hope that he could accept my words, the baring of my heart. "Maybe it would have saved myself some heartbreak with your brother if I didn't want a serious relationship. But I've never done casual." Surely it would be too much for him to take. This was Reese after all.
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 22, 2009 16:37:44 GMT -5
I nodded as I listened, the full brunt of what was happening, what was happening between us. For a moment I just sort of stared blankly as thoughts flew around my head, and it wasn't till I felt light headed that I realized I was breathing more quickly. I shook my head a little, closing my eyes as I snapped myself out of the mindless stare. Taking a deep breath I looked at her. "It scares me." I said softly, the words coming easier then I would have thought. "I've never wanted children... or marriage." I sighed softly, it couldn't possibly be that true could it? Was I the type that didn't want those things. I reached up and tucked a lock behind her ear. "The best I can say Juliette, is that I can try, but I don't know what I'll be like, or how I'll take things. I run easily Juliette, if you know anything about me is that I'm not one to fight."
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 23, 2009 0:56:02 GMT -5
I shook my head, my eyes almost glaring at him. "I don't believe that," I replied stubbornly. "I can't believe that. You fought for me, you fought for months. In Naamah's name, you and Gratien literally got into a fist fight. I... I know some things won't come easily for you. I... I just... What I need..."
I sighed. "Oh hell, what I'm trying to say is that I don't expect you to be perfect. We're both going to have to bend a little for this to work at all. But that's what I want in my future. I don't want you to run." My voice even quavered at the thought. "I could never lie to you, but you're a much better lier than I am. Maybe if you're honest when you want to run, I can tone things down." It was all swamping in over me, the seriousness of the conversation, the shock that he was here. Tears began to snake down from my eyes. Oh how I wanted to bury my face in his chest and let him hold me and tell me that it was alright.
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 23, 2009 11:29:17 GMT -5
I tried to focus as my breathing increased even more, this was so much, so much all at once, and the reality of things were coming crashing down on me. I turned so that I was sitting and looking straight ahead before I bent at the waist and placed my head between my knees. "You need to give me a minute." I said softly as I tried not to feel so nausiated at the fear and anxiety welled in me. I closed my eyes and let my breath come as I thought.
This was Juliette after all, isn't this what you wanted? Are you that big of a coward? Yes was all I could think. She's right though, I fought Gratien, I pushed my way in. But that was part of the game right? Push him away, bed her over and over till I was drained of any feelings for her, and then discard her myself. Thats what I had planned wasn't it? There was still a part of me that wanted it. I didn't want to be burdened by some one, I wanted to mount any woman that came my way should I choose it... not that I had to...but as long as the option was there. But its Juliette! This is the girl you've had feels for since you can remember, the one you pined for, the one that you literally fought Gratien for! And I was in love with her, despite my desire to not feel this way, I did.
I sat up finally, feeling less light headed and ran my hand through my hair before swallowing. I turned my head to her, tears on her cheeks. "Alright," I said softly, finding a strange amount of resolve in the action. "Slowly. You and I."
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 23, 2009 16:01:42 GMT -5
I watched him in agony as he thought, my own arms wrapping around my torso after the loss of his touch. Oh gods, please. Please, don't let him run from me now. Not after so long denying this. At least let us have our chance. Please...
The tears fell faster and hotter as the moments dragged out. The sight of his hunched, wrestling form blurred into watery lines. He straightened slowly, as if he had aged rapidly. At his words, I let out a sob and gave into my urge. The side of my face pressed against his chest and I held him as I cried with relief.
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 23, 2009 16:07:25 GMT -5
A damn broke in me and I wrapped my arms around her as she pressed to me, opening myself up to the fact of Juliette being in my life. I wasn't sure what to do about it though, it felt so strange and I wasn't sure what to make of the feelings. I couldn't though, there was too much right now and right now I just wanted to live in the moment.
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 23, 2009 16:27:34 GMT -5
His arms came around my body without hesitation and he simply held me. It was exactly what I needed. The tears soaked his shirt, but they slowly came to a stop before the carriage swayed with the tell-tale sign of our arrival home. I sniffed. "I'm sorry, I got your shirt all wet," I murmured. We had already said so much, so many important things, that all my mind could scramble together was something unimaginative.
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Post by Prince Reese de Somerville on Jul 23, 2009 16:38:34 GMT -5
I chuckled softly as she pointed out my wet shirt and looked at her. "Well then, I should probably take it off." I said teasingly and raised a brow with a little grin.
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Post by Juliette L'Envers de Montegue on Jul 24, 2009 12:34:14 GMT -5
I chuckled at his quip, albeit a bit wetly. "You are not leaving his carriage half-dressed." And as I spoke, we came to a stop. We were home, for better or for worse.
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