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Post by Soleil Belfours on Aug 21, 2007 23:53:23 GMT -5
I nodded. "Can you rub my neck for me?" I asked. "Though if that makes you uncomfortable, you don't have to."
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Post by Christophe Legard nó Shahrizai on Aug 21, 2007 23:57:38 GMT -5
"Of course not." I replied, going around to the back of her chair and placing my hands on her shoulders. I started rubbing, easing closer to her tense neck with every pass. Even though it didn't make me uncomfortable, I had chosen the position on purpose. There was a chaise nearby that we could have both fitted on if we had gotten close. But I made a promise to Mala, and I intended to keep it.
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Post by Soleil Belfours on Aug 22, 2007 0:09:10 GMT -5
I hummed with pleasure as he rubbed my tension away, feeling looser and better than I had in days. "Thank you," I said. "That feels good..." I closed my eyes and just let myself enjoy it.
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Post by Christophe Legard nó Shahrizai on Aug 22, 2007 0:17:39 GMT -5
I continued, feeling the tension slowly drain from her. I was glad I was standing, because I had a sudden mental image of her body melting against mine...
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Post by Soleil Belfours on Aug 22, 2007 0:22:10 GMT -5
The sparks between us were still there, there was no doubt about it, but I would not be the one to facilitate them. Christophe was engaged now, and I would not violate the sacred contract he had made, as unhappy as it made me.
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Post by Christophe Legard nó Shahrizai on Aug 22, 2007 0:28:43 GMT -5
She had felt it too, or felt something, for slight tension returned. I concentrated on soothing it out again, letting my other thoughts drift away.
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Post by Soleil Belfours on Aug 22, 2007 9:52:55 GMT -5
It felt like hours had passed, though it had only been a few minutes. My body felt languid and relaxed, and I began to daydream about Synnove. I wondered what she would look like, how she would behave. I wondered if she would love me, because I already loved her more than anything else in the entire world. "What do you think she will be like, Christophe?" I asked quietly.
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Post by Christophe Legard nó Shahrizai on Aug 22, 2007 10:04:35 GMT -5
Her voice had a dreamlike quality and it made me smile. "She'll be beautiful, a little blonde angel. I think she'll be the most precious thing in the world."
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Post by Soleil Belfours on Aug 23, 2007 10:51:35 GMT -5
I smiled and sighed. "She is already the most precious thing in the world," I murmured, rubbing my belly. It had't yet started to grow in earnest, but you could feel a little something.
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Post by Christophe Legard nó Shahrizai on Aug 24, 2007 1:49:13 GMT -5
"Can you feel her already?" Surely not, my mind told me even as she rubbed her belly.
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Post by Soleil Belfours on Aug 24, 2007 21:04:15 GMT -5
"No," I replied. "At least, not any kicking. But my stomach feels different, firmer and fuller somehow."
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Post by Christophe Legard nó Shahrizai on Aug 24, 2007 23:38:38 GMT -5
The movements of my hands had trailed off until my my fingers merely rested against her. I went around in front of her, kneeling down. "May I?" I asked, wanting to rest my hands against her stomach.
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Post by Soleil Belfours on Aug 25, 2007 0:23:12 GMT -5
I nodded. "Of course," I replied, smoothing down the fabric of my dress.
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Post by Christophe Legard nó Shahrizai on Aug 25, 2007 0:30:52 GMT -5
I placed my hands on her belly. It didn't feel any different, but I knew that would change soon. "So I have a basis for comparison later." I told her, not removing my hands from her for a long moment as I locked the memory in place.
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Post by Soleil Belfours on Aug 25, 2007 14:46:02 GMT -5
His hands were warm through the fabric of my dress, and I felt a dull ache at the memory of our time together. "All right," I said. I felt bittersweetly happy at this moment. Slowly, I rested my hands atop his, above the place where our child was growing now.
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Post by Christophe Legard nó Shahrizai on Aug 25, 2007 14:50:33 GMT -5
There was something in her voice that made me look up. There was pain on her face. I turned my hands so they held hers, trying to offer her comfort.
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Post by Soleil Belfours on Aug 25, 2007 14:59:07 GMT -5
The way he held my hands, the way he was trying to comfort me, it was all too much. I felt the melting sensation again, more powerfully this time, and I turned my head away when he tried to make eye contact, though I did not let go of his hands. There was so much I wanted to say, and so much I could not say. Even in my pain, I was a proud woman. I would not let him know how deeply his choice had truly wounded me. It was comfort to know that he would love our child, though, and that was what truly mattered.
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Post by Christophe Legard nó Shahrizai on Aug 25, 2007 15:23:27 GMT -5
She shut me out, and I nearly sighed. "Do you want me to go?"
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Post by Soleil Belfours on Aug 25, 2007 15:29:41 GMT -5
I snapped out of my funk suddenly. "No," I said, surprised. "No, I don't." I looked at him, resisting the feelings. "I am sorry," I said. "If you want to go, you can, but I hope you will come back to..." and here I gestured to my stomach "...see her progress."
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Post by Christophe Legard nó Shahrizai on Aug 25, 2007 15:34:12 GMT -5
I raised the hand still in mine to my lips, kissing the back of it softly. "I should go. Please, write when you have some time free for another visit. I know your schedule must be busy."
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Post by Soleil Belfours on Aug 25, 2007 15:51:29 GMT -5
"I will," I said, trying not to feel too much the softness of his lips on my hand. "Be well, Christophe. I will see you soon."
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Post by Christophe Legard nó Shahrizai on Aug 25, 2007 15:59:21 GMT -5
I rose. "Goodbye Soleil." One last smile and I left her. Once outside, I started whistling, my step light. I was going to be a father!
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